Dear Friends in the Search for Bianca/Daniela,
As expected, the Latina Special DVD's from Direct Video arrived on Friday. Needless to
say, I have spent at least 10 hours late Friday night, Saturday night,
and Sunday morning scouring them for every detail, and marveling in
amazement at what I have witnessed and experienced through this
set. I was hoping to take care of a couple of chores outdoors this
afternoon. But the wind outside is wilder than the fury on my
television screen over the past two days, and I am in such a state of
euphoria - punctuated by occasional tears of joy and love - that all I
can do right now is sit at the computer and write about it.
Three weeks ago, I mentioned that it took six weeks for me to finally
take the image of Daniela in the Direct Video catalog seriously.
Fortunately, it hasn't taken that long to identify her scenes on the
DVD set. But as of Saturday morning, I still had not recognized her.
Part of the problem was the refreshment of my memory after more than 2
1/2 years, along with the (mostly minor) changes in her
appearance from July 2004 to November 2006 when this footage was made.
But a larger part of it was language. Naturally, all the dialog and
intimate talk on the entire DVD set is in Portuguese. The only English
is
in the lyrics of a song that plays at the beginning of the DVD on which
Daniela appears. I know from working around immigrants that people who
can
speak two or more languages can appear to have different personalities
in
each language. With their original tongue, the brain connections are
more direct, and the range of expression that they are capable of
is broader. This variation can alter your perception and recognition of
their personality. Throughout our encounters at the club, the language
that Daniela and I spoke was English. In all of our conversations, she
only used two Portuguese words (which I knew instinctively she had
pronounced flawlessly.) As part of the process of determining which
girl she was, I had to imagine a "Portuguese language" personality I
never knew. But nevertheless, I found a fool proof way to identify
her. I followed the necklace...the same one she wears above from a
photo that was taken on the same set. Once I did that, everything else,
from her body grooming and flesh tones to her personality fell right
into
line. Within 15 more minutes, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I
had found Daniela. From that point on, every part of my being, from my
sexuality to my heart to my intellect, was fixated intensely on her and
the developing scene she was part of. (As I said to her one night when
she was on stage, I was a "deer in the headlights.")
For those of you interested in the DVD set or who may have a way of
accessing the collection somehow, Daniela's sequences begin on Disc 3,
Part 7 and her involvement is interspersed until the end of the disc.
She and one of the men she couples with do make a brief appearance
prior to Part 7, but it is only a brief group conversation. Let me just
say at the start that the level of professionalism in these discs, both
with lighting, sound, and production values, and especially the
intensity of the performances - supposedly from "first timers" - often
exceeds the best American porn. And I may certainly be viewed as bias in
this, but I believe there is a reason she was chosen as the cover model
for the ads. I really believe she is the star of the show.
The theme of the entire disc where Daniela appears seems to be modeled
on the more typical Brazilian strip club, which from my research, is
more like a bordello where the girls can also be hired out to hotel
rooms for the night. Or, as in this case, there is another floor with
open rooms supervised by a club matron, and there is open swinging
between the
girls and their customers. Along the main dance area of the
set was the name "Romanza." I haven't determined whether
that's the name of an actual club in Rio, or is just fictitious, but I
added the term to my revised Adwords campaign on Google's Brazilian
domain anyway. Among the paltry lists of Rio strip clubs I was able to
dig up on line - even using Google's Brazilian domain in Portuguese -
this name was absent.
Daniela does two sequential coupling scenes with two different men in
what is apparently a floor with open rooms available for group
sex. Out of all
the themes on these four discs, these settings would certainly fit
Daniela the best, both from her exotic dance background, and
interestingly
enough, the only sexual theme to be mentioned in our many
conversations. With the first guy, they go at it for quite some time,
interspersed with scenes of other nearby couplings. They do just about
everything a male/female couple can commonly do and it's very good.
But in the end, there is no sign that he ever has an orgasm, and he
eventually rolls off to her side and falls asleep. When she realizes
what has happened, she gets the same smile on her face that she had at
the club whenever she began her walk down the runway to begin her strip
routine ( ...oh God, I love her!). Then she gets up and explores the
action taking place in other rooms on the floor.
When she enters a room where a coupling is taking place, very
interesting bits of information emerge in the ensuing dialog - in spite
of the language barrier - that indicate this indeed is our
Bianca/Daniela (literally). Both girls touch each other on the shoulder
and the other girl says faintly, but distinctly, "A Danni." Then a new
male appears, who I recalled from the two previous discs in the series.
He holds out his hands and says to Daniela, "A Jessica!" But the other
male appears to correct him and says, "Bianca" which is apparently her
club name in the video as well as in real life. This was probably a
mistake on the part of the second male. I've replayed this segment
several times and these words are clearly there with careful listening.
I also tried to look up words in my Portuguese dictionary that may
sound like "Danni" and I couldn't find any. It's obviously a name.
This guy ends up being Daniela's second partner in the series, and he
more than makes up for his initial mistake. What follows is - combined
with the other nearby couplings - the most intense group footage I've
ever seen in an adult video, and considerably more passionate and
sincere than most American group scenes. At one point Daniela has to
put her hands behind her head and support herself against a couple of
wall beams. And there is no lack of orgasm this time, as her finale
with this guy ends the entire disc, along with her unique, giddy
reaction to it.
One fact that struck me quickly about Daniela's performance personality
- other than her astonishing professionalism - is the fact that she is
very, VERY VERBAL. That came as no surprise. While other girls keep
repeating the same screams over and over (which I guess is okay if
you're in the mood), she goes into these detailed, guttural,
impassioned monologues that sound like mini dramas. And her speech in
her native tongue is so expressive it flows like poetry, and it is far
more arousing and engaging than repetitive screams.
As soon as I recognized this quality in her performance, I thought back
to the night I met her at the club, and the moment her body language
indicated her fondness for me and that she was quickly developing a
crush on me. It happened while I was speaking and it was my glib use of
language that did it. After that, whenever I used more complex English
words and figures of speech, she was always anxious to learn them.
Daniela and I are both language people. It is our art form. We are both
communicators and in me, she recognized a male kindred spirit. Another
factor that makes her come across so well in adult videos is that she's
a person who doesn't hold back and follows her heart and her passions
in the moment without restraint. And yet she's the sweetest, warmest,
friendliest, and most sincere person you could ever meet.
So how has this video affected my feelings about Daniela and my
motivation in this search? It has only intensified them and made me
more determined than ever to reach her with my love. When she discovers
all the details of all my efforts on her behalf over nearly three
years, she will be shocked, amazed, and even humbled. She
will see a dimension and depth of love that she has yet to conceive. I
truly believe that for her soul to advance to the next level, she needs
to experience a man like me who ultimately understood the difficult
circumstances she was facing in 2004 and went beyond his own despair to
reach out to her in love anyway. And she, likewise, has the ability -
even somewhat in her absence - to heal the effects of putting my trust
in propaganda for too many years instead of faith in my own heart and
desires. Furthermore, she has none of the baggage Americans of my age
had to deal with in our early years. She was born in the late '70's,
into a situation and setting where she could consider sex beautiful and
ecstatic, not vulgar or the realm of criminals, and a culture where
people quickly and openly express love, affection, and desire.
Yes, I admit that other than the arrival of the video, this past week
has been a disappointing one. I have not managed to get any replies or
make any headway with the (uncaring) Leisure Time bureaucracy. One day
I walked into work practically in tears. Now that I have reviewed the
DVD's, I truly have the motivation to call Direct Video's regular
business number to see if they can at least give me the name of the
production company in Rio that produced this footage, or at least some
reliable address where the performers can receive fan mail. If need be,
I have plans for a mailing to the matrons at all strip clubs in the Rio
area with the image of Daniela printed on photo quality paper. But
obtaining a truly thorough list has been difficult. (There are
obviously more than four clubs in a major tourist city the size of Los
Angeles! Even Worcester has four clubs.) Perhaps this really isn't her
only video appearance and she is beginning to get some recognition in
Brazilian porn circles, or she has hooked up with a modeling agency, or
some other entity that's more traceable on the Internet. Whatever the
situation, I WILL ultimately succeed in getting through to her. Right
now, I am sure I am only two or three people removed from someone who
knows her personally. And I am also confident that a trip to Rio will
become viable for me in the near future. I have already begun the paper
work.
There may certainly be more obstacles requiring more ideas and
workarounds. But in the midst of my despair and tears last week, a
memory popped into my head that instantly dispelled my gloom.
Interestingly enough, it was the memory of a "reading" that was given
to me back in 1993. Now, at this phase of my life, do I generally
recommend that people get "readings" in order to find hope with their
personal problems? No. There are too many charlatans to sift through to
make it worth your time. But this lady had some skill, she wasn't
greedy, and her reputation was tethered to a metaphysical book store.
And what she has said those many years ago has had lasting value.
Toward the end of our session she remarked, "I know you will find this
hard to believe, but I don't see you as being single for the entire
rest of your life. I clearly see this woman (...and I think she even said
"South American woman" with Brazil being the first possibility she listed). She has beautiful hair and a powerful sexuality,
and I very much see your life and hers as intertwined and revolving
around each other." She added, "If you take her out to dinner, make
sure it is a restaurant serving a lot of fresh organic food so she can
sustain her energy."
Of course, none of this made any sense given the conditions of my life
in 1993. Today, it strikes so close to home, it's shocking. In an
"amateur" reading I received dating back to the probable year of
Daniela's birth, the reader had a troubled look on her face, as if she
had to really dig to find something positive. Finally she implored "you
will have two big loves in your life... the second one will [long pause
- possibly implying years of no contact] ...EVENTUALLY happen and it
will last more or less the rest of your life."
So, any of us can think what we will about such predictions. But when
faced with the final stage of a challenge like this, it's not just
euphoric experiences like the viewing of this DVD set which drive me
forward. It's these little miracles from the past - defying every
statistical odd as well - that help me overlook temporary setbacks. I
know what I must do and I will NEVER back down until I succeed... not
after being led this far.
Well, it's time to try to get some rest. I tried to nap a couple of
hours earlier, but my sleep was not sound because my heart was gently
burning in my chest with wonder and anticipation. I'll see if I do
better now. Thanks as always for your support and interest in this wild
ride that has taken us everywhere from an insurance agency in Brighton
to a porn set in Rio.
Love,
Jeff
http://www.voltabianca.info
P.S. A second copy of the video should be arriving at my home early in
the week. If anyone on this list would like to borrow the extra copy
for about a week, and you live close by, let me know. If you don't live
close, you can PayPal me $5 and I'll send it to you Priority Mail, and
you can also enjoy it for about a week or so after it arrives. My
PayPal email is t1700 at comcast dot net. First come first served.
Warning: if you plan to view the video with your spouse,
girlfriend/boyfriend, or date, it is wise to cancel your plans for the
rest of the evening. ;-)
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